Says......

If you are in love with fictions, would you ever read histories? If you are in love with Espresso, would you try the taste of the other brewed coffee? When the best thing already kept in heart, then no matter how many extra choices for you, you will never see it and take in heart.

White Horse - Taylor Swift

I am in love with this songs. I am still a dreamer although i have been letting down. ha ha I never change. Not like her. She is tougher thou.




White Horse

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holding on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should have known, I should have known

That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

Baby I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake i didn't know to be in love you had to fight to have the upper hand.
I had so many dreams about you and me.
Happy endings;
Now I know

I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry

Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.

Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh
Try and catch me now
Whoa-Oh
It's too late
To catch me now.

To love.......

To love a man like you
is to know there will always be someone whose strength I can lean on,
whose honesty I can trust. It means
knowing there will always be someone
whose sense of humour can lighten a care,
whose advice can put everything in perspective. It means
knowing there is one special someone
whose arms I can wrap up in
when the rest of the world doesn’t understand,
someone whose touch can take me to a place
where nothing matters but the two of us. I means
having someone very special to love.

****Christmas***** HOHOHO

Yesterday was a great nite for me. Get my Chritstmas gift from Pink haha terima kasih for the tree.....so did Bryan bought u anything today? Ha ha your Christmas tree already done. He he showing u the photo here....nice leh...ha ha




Yesterday clubbing was awesome....Autumn really not bad, where they played mix R&B and HipHop makes me feel that I am in the same old clubbing day. Ha ha dancing around playing around like not me at all. Ha ha...I thought that I had changed, but actually I am not. I am still as playful as before. Ha ha clubbing life is still wonderful. Today was all alone again, shopping around midvalley and buying all this stuff to decorate my tree. Haih...sometimes I really feel like my liang xing macam kena makan by some monster like that. I can treat things so simple and even disastrous came; I can just act nothing and move on. Today actually my grandma was admitted to the hospital but I rather go shopping also dun wan go visit her. Shit, I really dunno what I should do. Going there alone is a very awkward situation and I do not want myself to be there. This is the first time I feel that I’m doing something bad to my dad but forget about it, things never turn back. What I should or shouldn’t do, I already did it. Just face it. I am a Bitch! Merry Christmas to all Bitches around the world, CHEERS!!!

半情歌

花 接受凋零
风 接受追寻
心的伤还有一些不要紧
我接受你的决定

你将会被谁抱紧
唱什么歌哄他开心
我想著天空什么时候会放晴
地球不曾为谁停一停

你的明天有多快乐不是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了
伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格
你的祝福
一半甜的一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人残念的总是未完成的
我只能唱著一半的歌

你将会被谁抱紧
唱什么歌哄他开心
我想著天空什么时候会放晴
地球不曾为谁停一停

你的明天有多快乐不是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了
伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格
你的祝福
一半甜的一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人残念的总是未完成的
我只能唱著一半的歌


我的明天快不快乐都是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了
伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格

你的祝福
一半甜的一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人残念的总是未完成的

另一半的歌

Shit things do happen sometimes!

Somebody, try to be and act frustrated to others who know read chinese but dun even dare to talk to me on my face when she get scold for wat she shud do n din do. What the hell i care? and its like i cared. FUCK OFF!.... There is ALWAYS ALWAYS a reason, "Oh i busy lah", " u can't see i got lots of report here", "Tomor lah", "Later lah"..bla bla n later one, somebody just willing to help around n tats y she act like dat. Yala she nobody understand how HARD is an assignment ..nobody know an assignment cnot take even 1 minute to do something tat u shud. The rubbish is like hell in the kitchen but sum ppl can just pass by n saw nothing. Y others do well, oni u r the one blaming? and u r the only one that din do ANYTHING! and still dare to blame on BLOG, oh i dun understand, u r Enough of ME. well WHO is enuf of WHO!? Think again before u speak. OH no time, but got time in blogging also no time do housework. wer is that hand than? oh bz typing report, is wat SHE said. but what she said n wat she did is totally out of tat. WHAT never know? ya ...Who will know bout others when she only think n see of herself? Oh my hand pain, but others hands r bleeding but she is complaining bout her own pain. Oh my leg pain, but others already going to be handicap. Oh my heart broken, but others already die heart, Always is about HER n HERSELF, and others look like shit to her, look like nothing, just INVISIBLE...well well...yala, the good one is her lah, the bad one is me, so wat, at least she her stuff, but end up wat, promise me will throw then, plz say again, out loud, who did it?who is the one who rely did it? common tell ppl la. I need to understand u for wat. i just asking u for a distance to throw out that rubbish and i didn;t ask u to walk 10 miles. summo, yala u bz, but like u ever throw tat rubbish, ever did some contribution to the family like dat. some ppl just dun treat u as family but the way they wan ppl to understand them, wow like shit. just Some ppl.

Working life~~~

Days goes on...
This week is going to be a torturing week for me. I was involved in a Bloomberg war which I cannot run away from. It’s really a Bloomberg war. My job, everyday, is to go Bloomberg to check for those stupid floating rate bonds. It’s stupid that we everyday have to updates those rates and it do not have any system to detect those updating rate. We have to use human machine to detect it. And so that human machine is ME. Aduh...normally the beginning of the month is torturing, Y? Becoz the beginning of the month we got 151 lists of bonds to track the rates and that makes me have to sit in front the Bloomberg about 4hours to get my stuff completed. Ok nevermind, summo the stupiak Bloomberg pc only got one and the whole department is sharing. So what, end up, all have to buat muka tebal or gaduh and see who got the thicker and fierce face and celupar mouth then they WON. I admit, i do not have a celupar mouth, n tat makes me lose in tat war. I rely hate that babi girl that keep no manners like dat no need to queue up but love to masuk ppl queue and act like she is correct and she have the right like dat. Common wei, everyone have the right as well wat. Haihh ok fine, yday is a bad day for me. I rely kena kekdao by that stupid no brain girl and i continue to do my work. Suddenly a guy talk to me, and ask me politely whether can i let him use the Bloomberg for a second and he just need to take 5 list of stock rates. I damn bosong tat time and i accidently scold him in a impolite way. =.=”” and suddenly i STONE ter....coz is the lengcai who i said is the cute guy in my working place that i use to kap him wan =.=”” this is the first time he talk to me...but i scold ppl =.=”” at that moment, seriously feel like kena throw by a big stone, and splash by a pail of ice water sial..babi girl, cause me into this...i hate that girl so much. And thats y, this early morning, i was preparing for war and preparing for how to revenge and how to protect myself from kena bully, mana tahu, today Luck is with me, i get the Bonds 10am in the morning and i manage to finish it before lunch time. Everything goes smoothly and i din get conflict wif anyone today =.=”” haihhh...i am happy becoz no conflict but i am sad as well, coz i prepared to gaduh wif ppl tat time, but nobody wan to gaduh wif me pulak..lol...paiseh...write so long...hahaha.now feel better d....haha as i said, life and days goes on....

About mysel~f

ok enuf bout Pinky, something bout me here as well. This few days, when thru something new in my life as well. Last sat, i when for my fren wedding ceremony, this is the first time in my life to see Indian married. ha ha its nice...quite different from i expect.
Today, i was kinda happy to work at 10am actu....n when i reach office lepak lepak awhile, waiting for sinking bond to start. Well, finally the sinking item is reach in my department, so i hv to go bloomberg to check for the details. normally was quite happy, i can go bloomberg ter sit sit, takes sources, normally 30items takes me about 1.5hours to finish all the items and the most important thing is, i can see lengcai. haha that cute guys just in front me. ok well, today, after sorting the data n find out i got 150items to check, lolz..damn happy wei, i think i can sit ter for more than 4 hours sambil see lengcai sambil do work..muahaha
manatahu, when i go ter that time, that lengcai, tukar place with an older lady d....rely =.="" SHIT betul....so i end up, the whole morning, see the old girl face rather than the lengcai, damn no mood today, BAD DAY! well tats my day....

The Mask!

Its about 1am in the morning and i was about to go to bed. Suddenly my random picture beside my toolbar show me a picture that i burst out to laugh. lolzzz..i miss this picture..haha
Pink dun kill me, i seriously love this picture ...hahahaha
The Mask Lady~~~ haha

Apologize (Remix) (Ft. One Republic & Unknown) - Timbaland

i prefer this one than the original song...try n listen, its really not bad.

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Rap Verse:

First day that we met there was something special

Something between us with so much potential

But something was nothing was all just a game

You played my brain with your cute little frame

To think that I thought there was something between us

Think that I thought there was love in between us

Now that I thought it was you in between us

Now that I thought it was you that deceived us

But no us, it was you then me

How the hell could I see what would happen to be

Were you actually just playin with me?

How the fuck could this be how you treated me?

You said these words and you did these things

And you wrapped me around like a fuckin string

And you pulled me along and you led me on

Until all I got left is the words to a song

Now I look in your eyes and I start to realize

All those fucking lies in between your lines

Not a single truth in a thing you said

But I don't give a shit now cuz to me you're dead and it's..

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

I don't wanna know!

(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)

I'll go ahead and pour myself a drink
I really couldn't care less what you think
Well I don't have to listen now
Live this day down
If I can't feel a thing
You might as well save your goodbyes
We can give this train wreck one last ride
I'm gonna have to listen now
Live this day down
If I don't make things right
I'll tell you one last time

I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't wanna know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
So save your goodbye kiss
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)

I woke up with my heartbeat in my head
I reached for the bottle by the bed
I saw your side was not slept in
Cold sheets again
Remind me of what you said
We need to take a break for a while
It's been so long since I smiled
I don't wanna listen now
Live this day down
With you so drunk and high
So I'll say goodbye

I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't wanna know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over

I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't wanna know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
Now I know I can't stay sober
Cause you left me here like this
I don't wanna know
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
So save your goodbye kiss
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over
If it's over
I don't wanna know
If it's over
If it's over
I don't wanna know

What about NOW?

"What About Now"

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

My favourite song n band ever!

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,


I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

My favourite song n band ever!

Nickelback - Far Away

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know, you know, you know

[CHORUS]
I love you
I’ve loved you all along
I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

On my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of Hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything, but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know, you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’d never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

So far away
So far away
far away for far too long
So far away
So far away
far away for far too long

But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
I love you
I loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me,and never let me go
Keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
Believe it
hold on to me never let me go

Keep breathing
hold on to me, never let me go
Keep breathing
hold on to me, never let me go

[.......................]

It’s not the end of the day after all. It’s just the end of the story which had begun and has to end. It’s not the end of the world but it’s the end of the things that we used our heart to grow it but it ended up dying. It’s a bad day but it’s not as bad as the end of the world or something. Just hold on and we gonna get thru this all by our self. Life is much much more than this and its going to be much more.

I love to act, yeah I love to act. Acting is much much painful than showing the real u. The more u act nth, the more u knows how much u hurt as well. Don ever thinks that everyone can simply get thru this. Everyone need their own time and I dun even know how many time this kind of feeling have haunted me but this is what I wan. Din i? What n why shud I afraid of to face it. Hey bitch, face it. Its ur fault.

My dirtiest day!

Today is my dirtiest day! Well, normally i have to wake up at 8.30am to prepare to work as the working is actually started at 9am and i normally won over slept coz its working day n not a classes time anymore. Last nite, i was drinking too much cough syrup and mayb due to that, i over slept. haha okok i din balme that cough syrup, i have to blame myself too. ok well anyway, today, i woke up at 8.45am..rely seriuosly shit..althou my company is just 1km away, but i still need to bath n brush my teeth wan mah...=.="" due to insufficient time...i was just manage to brush my teeth without the bath and the time shows 8.47am...i rush to wear my cloth n comb my hair, and the time is show 8.52am..i keep curse myself for the whole morning,,keep shit here shit ter, coz i cnot find this i cnot find tat....ok finally i grab all the stuff i need for work n after wearing my socks, i open my door. But the most shit thing happened here, when opening the door, i terpijak Coco Peeeeee (well tats my dog coco)=.="" n the time is show 8.55am....i hv no choice n i did not change my socks at all coz i hv no time to find another new socks n i just wear tat to work =.=""" rely shit shit shit..but nvm suan liao, coz i din bath to work as well...=.="" the most busuk day of my life...haihh i seriously feel like posting this haha coz i rely had a special day n dun worry,,, i do wash my feet when i got home n i wash the sock n the shoe as well....luckily tmr is saturday....haha i can sleep well without worrying i will be late to work...u guys..dun be like me, dun work at the place beside ur house..u will start to get lazy everyday hahahah....ok tats my day...gunite guys...

Working Life ~ ~ ~

Working life is not that easy but it’s not that hard either. The first 2 days I was having my induction where they used to intro me to my working area and what the company is all about. Then 3 days continue with my department inductions which introduce what actually is my department and what actually is my department do. Haihh like that still not enough. After the 3 days induction, I have to continue 5 more training + presentation day at Bursa. Sobsob… what a torturing week, exam n present, exam then present again. Luckily I pass for that test where everyone for that CA must pass over 70%. Muahaha guess wat, I got 91% of the mark sial. Muahaha dun stop me, I memang sengaja wanna lansi sial..tsk tsk tsk…let me let me. Haihh after training day, I everyday at my department doing nothing but to learn what my senior is doing. See till eyes blur blur. @.@ but have to see also. Keep read those procedure and what we have to do. Everyday we got damn lots of work and I damn wish to help but they of coz won let me. I hope I can get my hand on one day. Haih but when leh. Sobsob… this few days too much settlement to do, n normally our peak busy is on 15^th, but the thing is this month 15^th fall on Saturday, so all the work load got to push to 17^th & 18^th, pity my senior they got to work till 9pm and 11pm. Luckily I am newbies, I can run away from tat still. Haha but what comes around goes around. One day, I am going to be like them as well. It’s just a matter of time. Lol…ok la..Stop bragging about what I did these past few days, I think got to boring u guys d. Ok let’s hear a song, I find it quite romantic and nice. Heaven Know – by Rick Price

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up,
Till I close my eyes.
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know.

And though she's so far away,
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on

So tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Chorus:

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
But only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope & pray
'Coz heaven knows.

My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her,
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I'll know she's mine

But tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

(Repeat Chorus except last line)

Bridge:

'Coz heaven knows
Why I live in despair
'Coz wide awake or dreamin',
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave,
I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so?

(Repeat Chorus)

Heaven knows... heaven knows.

Sunday is Gloomy!

Gloomy Sunday~~~from Hungarian "Szomorú vasárnap",

Heard people said, this is a bad omen song. A song that lead people to suicide and death. "Gloomy Sunday” is a song written by László Jávor and set to music in 1933 by Hungarian pianist and composer Rezso Seress, in which the singer mourns the untimely death of a lover and contemplates suicide. Gloomy Sunday had been announced as the song that provokes people to commit suicide.

In 1968, Rezso Seress, the original composer, jumped to his death from his apartment. His obituary in the New York Times mentions the song's notorious reputation:

“

Budapest, January 13. Rezsoe Seres, whose dirge-like song hit, "Gloomy Sunday" was blamed for touching off a wave of suicides during the nineteen-thirties, has ended his own life as a suicide it was learned today. Authorities disclosed today that Mr. Seres jumped from a window of his small apartment here last Sunday, shortly after his 69th birthday. The decade of the nineteen-thirties was marked by severe economic depression and the political upheaval that was to lead to World War II. The melancholy song written by Mr. Seres, with words by his friend, Ladislas Javor, a poet, declares at its climax, "My heart and I have decided to end it all." It was blamed for a sharp increase in suicides, and Hungarian officials finally prohibited it. In America, where Paul Robeson introduced an English version, some radio stations and nightclubs forbade its performance. Mr. Seres complained that the success of "Gloomy Sunday" actually increased his unhappiness, because he knew he would never be able to write a second hit. - New York Times, January 14, 1968. The English version of the hungarian song:- Sunday is gloomy, My hours are slumberless Dearest the shadows I live with are numberless Little white flowers Will never awaken you Not where the black coaches Sorrow has taken you Angels have no thoughts Of ever returning you Wouldnt they be angry If I thought of joining you? Gloomy sunday Gloomy is sunday, With shadows I spend it all My heart and i Have decided to end it all Soon therell be candles And prayers that are said I know But let them not weep Let them know that Im glad to go Death is no dream For in death Im caressin you With the last breath of my soul Ill be blessin you Gloomy sunday Dreaming, I was only dreaming I wake and I find you asleep In the deep of my heart here Darling I hope That my dream never haunted you My heart is tellin you How much I wanted you Gloomy sunday

Nite Nite n Sweet Dreamsssssssss

Good Night to all of my Friends! Kinda Miss U Guys Already (*.*). Tomorrow got to work d. jia you jia you...."da qi jing shen lai...ahhh....da qi jing shen lai."

My new hair style..hehehe

BEFORE

AFTER

Muahaha new hairstyle...ada apa comment ke? tsk tsk tsk
weekend rely too free liao nth to do, go cut cut hair, muahaha..Angel i am waiting for our next date. Rebonding vs Relaxing...haha

"Life For Rent"

I haven't ever really found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive

If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

White Flag

"White Flag"

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be



Dido - White Flag - Music Video via Noolmusic.com

I love this song so so much when i was 18 years old. haha It's years back but i still love it so much. I can stop myself from keep repeating the video. I really love the ending of this video. They actually love each other =.=""" lol at first i rely tot the girl love him only.

Sad & Lonely Day

I shut down my eyes when I hate to see the world being alone. I run away when I meet in a trouble and hide from it without fixing it. I disappear from the world full of sadness and try to search for the happiness. But, when you are alone, you tend to think too much and too much until you will wake up in the middle of the night, wondering what life is all about? I am stuck in love and I miss my friends. I miss those days without worries in my life and having so much fun until I simply do not remember when I start to be so lonely and so alone. My friends seem to disappeared, every single one. I’ve checked the place all over looking high and low but there isn’t a single one around. I guess they had to go. It’s the worst day in my life.

When You Really Love Someone Lyrics
Alicia Keys


I'm a woman
Lord knows it's hard
I need a real man to give me what I need
Sweet attention, love and tenderness
When it's real, its unconditional, I'm telling ya’ll
Cause a man just ain't a man if he ain’t man enough

To love you when you're right
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher when the world got you feeling low
He's giving you his last, cause he’s thinking of you first
Giving comfort when he's thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you really love someone
I'm telling ya’ll, I'm telling ya’ll

Cause you're a real man
And Lord knows it's hard
Sometimes you just need a woman's touch
Sweet affection, love and support
When it's real its unconditional
I'm telling ya’ll, oh
Cause a woman ain't a woman if she ain’t woman enough

To love you when you're right
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher when the world got you feeling low
She's giving you her best, even when you’re at your worst
Giving comfort when she's thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you really love someone
I'm telling ya’ll, I'm telling ya’ll
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

Sometimes you're gonna argue, sometimes you're gonna fight
Sometimes it's gonna feel like it'll never be right
But something so strong keeps you hold’n on
It don't make sense but it makes a good song
Cause a man just ain't a man if he ain’t man enough

To love you when you're right
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak
Love you when you're strong (Love when you when you’re strong)
(Take you high’a) when the world got you feeling low
He's giving you his last, cause he’s thinking of you first
Giving comfort when he's thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you really love someone
I'm telling ya’ll, I'm telling ya’ll
I'm telling ya’ll that a woman ain't a woman if she ain’t woman enough
(To love ya!)
Love you when you're right
Love you when you're wrong
(To hold ya!)
Love you when you're weak
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher and higher
when the world got you feeling low
She's giving you her best, even when you’re at your worst
(even when you’re at your worst, BABYBA!)
Giving comfort when she's thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you really love someone
I'm telling ya’ll, I'm telling ya’ll
Mm, mm, yeah (4x)

~AbBy~

The Halloween

This year Halloween seems queit, no events, no parties, no hangout wif the gangs, but alone at home siting infront my pc and typing this blog. haihhh where is my frenz and where is my outing spirit? why it seems like suddenly i become old d and lazy to enjoy myself? haha...i have no idea. but, i rely miss last year...sobsob....where r they?

1st working day

Emmm...things doesn't goes as what i expected it would be. i summo think the whole nite, which lengcai will sit beside me =.= hahaha anyway its all burn coz its just my imagination =.= the first day i stuck in the meeting from 7am till 4pm non stop learning those companies rule, do's n don'ts..bla bla bla....doing fire tour, if get fire, where to run....yada yada....the whole day finish just like dat. haha i dun even get to know who is my manager, wer is my exact department, all n all, what i should work for n about =.=" apa pun tak tahu, sudah siap...begitu balik rumah saje..lolzzz haihhh but anyway, its just a great wonderful start ...hope it will be nice today. haha

The nite before working day~~~

Haihh...i got to start wif ARGKKKKKK!!!~~~~ jiu ming ahhhhhh ARGKKKKK

Aku tak dapat tidur. rely tak dapat tidur ngan condition ini. ish...belum siap sedia lagi....sudah mau berperang..duh...siapa nak tolong...=.=""" helppppp....

later 7am , its my first day to work, argkk i cnot sleep...scare scare.....now its going to be 2am d, i still wasting my sleeping time typing stupid thing here, but but but...rely cnot sleep....who hv a best tips to sleep,,teach me thanks.

haihh ok la..i try to golek golek n see wat i can do...=.=....5am have to wake up ah, hope i won be late to work. gunite everyone =>

Saturday Morning~~ + KelipKelip trip

Its 10am in the morning on 25^th Oct, 2008. It was a nice early morning at my hometown home, chatting with Polar bear and Pang and out of sudden my dad open the Buddha chanting song makes me sweat a bit but it’s a special morning that I never had. I am too damn free and too damn sien. Wtf I am doing here sitting in front the pc and rely doing nothing but kacauing ppl on the net. My brother, on the other way keep laying on my bed kacauing Me pulak. He rely sipek FAT =.=”” rely like a ball sial…hahaha beh tahan….feel like take a snap shot on him while he’s laying right ter. Lolzzz ok well I am not tat bad. Haha u guys just imagine lah.

Well, since I am so free, I think I should upload my latest event here. After the damn damn hard 7 subject exam, I finally can have a good time with all my old buddy and together gether pergi Kuala Selangor eat beggar chicken and watch the Kuala Selangor famous kelip-kelip. Seriously, it was damn pretty. I rely wish my room o my house is full of those kelip kelip thing. Haha. But pinky said, when they are in the morning, they look scary like cockroaches look =.=” lol I wonder, I never see that before. She summo got that scary face makes me hard to not believe it rely looks like cockroaches haha…

emm..scenary view first

view from our hotel room, rely is half hutan half sea view..haha....we reach there around 5.30pm like dat. and rest for about 30min, we cabut to Ijok makan our"Hak yi Kai"

My room...sobsob =.="" (lost to pinky)

well, here it is, beggar chicken 1st dish...."lo mai kai"

Fish pink, haha (-.-!)

Ducky @@

The Big Shrimps~~

ehhh i this wan i not sure apa tu, but it seems like pork hand o leg.

haha this is the famous beggar chicken....emm yumyum, it rely nice...

Kelip-kelip time..hehe scary journey~~

althou scary but its rely rely beautiful...~~ i am glad i was ter...

Party time after the KlipKlip...

lai lai lai,....yum yum yum.....



At first we are still sober...~ but...






After 15min non stop.....all become like this d....chivas not even finish half, and we left the tequila half of the bottle as well..=.='''' after today, i swear i won drink so much liquor at a time already... i even vomit in my own bed room. shit =.=""" while bryan pulak peluk the toilet bowl for the whole nite....=.="" the worst is, clifford dunno y vomit blood =.="" omg...too over d lah...next time plz ah, dun ask me n pink go buy liquor d...u guys go buy sendiri...=.=""" we failed for organizing how much liquor we shud drink...=.="" lolzzzz

Exam Exam Exam ahhhh~~~

Jiu Ming Ah....Tomor is going to be my 1st day of my Final Exam, but damn, i just touch 2 chapter for tmr paper, argkkkk mana cari semangat sial. Really cnot tahan myself, after tmr, 6 more paper to go, how to survive i rely wonder, can i pass? duh...if i fail this time, i think i got to extend one year d man. sobsob...i dun wan extend i wan pass, but how? jiu ming ah....

If you are looking for love, would you recognize it if you found it?

Can you tell the difference between love and infatuation? Between love and attraction? Between love and sexual desire? Between love and friendship? Between sex and intimacy? Between a good relationship and one that is only pleasurable?
Lolz..the worst thing is, i can't.

Love offers and explains a definition of love in a way that is interesting, intense, clear, logical, and meaningful. All relationships --love, infatuation, friendship, dating, marriage, family, community, and professional-- involve three key elements:

Emotions --how we feel about each other
Ethics --how good or bad we are for each other
Joys --how much we satisfy or dissatisfy each other

Since a very long time ago, people have searched for the meaning of love. But even the great philosophers, with their profound definitions, could not fully touch its true essence. In a survey of 4-8 year olds, kids share their views on love. But what do little kids know about love? Read on and be surprised that despite their young and innocent minds, kids already have a simple but deep grasp of that four-letter word.

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"Love is that first feeling you feel before all the bad stuff gets in the way."

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."

"When someone loves you, the way she says your name is different. You know that your name is safe in her mouth."

"When someone loves you, the way she says your name is different. You know that your name is safe in her mouth."

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your french fries without making them give you any of theirs."

"Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at him because you know it would hurt his feelings."

"Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at him because you know it would hurt his feelings."

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My mommy and daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss but they look happy and sometimes they dance in the kitchen while kissing."

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."

"Love is hugging. Love is kissing. Love is saying no."

"When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you're scared she won't love you anymore. But then you get surprised because not only does she still love you, she loves you even more."

"There are 2 kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them."

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they've know each other so well."

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."

"Love is-if you hold hands and sit beside each other in the cafeteria. That means you're in love. Otherwise, you can sit across from each other and be okay."

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."

"Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken."

"Don't feel so bad if you don't have a boyfriend. There's lots of stuff you can do without one."

"Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."

"If you want somebody to love you, then just be yourself. Some people try to act like somebody else, somebody the boy likes better. I think the boy isn't being very good if he does this to you and you should just find a nicer boy."

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day"

"When you're born and see your mommy for the first time.

"My enemies taught me how to love."

"Love is what makes people hide in the dark corners of movie theaters."

"Love goes on even when you stop breathing and you pick up where you left off when you reach heaven."

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."

"You have to fall in love before you get married. Then when you're married, you just sit around and read books together."

"I let my big sister pick on me because my Mom says she only picks on me because she loves me. So I pick on my baby sister because I love her."

"Love cards like Valentine's cards say stuff on them that we'd like to say ourselves, but we wouldn't be caught dead saying."

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."

"Love is when mommy sees daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."

"You never have to be lonely. There's always somebody to love, even if it's just a squirrel or a kitten."

"You can break love, but it won't die."

I feel none of the above, am i in love now? I wonder...